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　Throughout this story, Leon, there is only one scene in which a woman is being shot.
　That is the scene where Stan shoots Matilda's stepmother and Matilda's stepsister. Here, Stan shoots them without any hesitation. And from this alone, it does not appear that Leon had to dare to set a rule that he would not shoot women and children. In fact, it's highly questionable how much of an impact the incident had on Stan, who seems to go about his business as usual, get the job done as he should and have nothing to remember when it's over. Well, I don't see any passages where he was actually freaked out by too much shock, so I guess it wasn't actually a big deal to Stan. It was one of many cases that needed to be dealt with, and only one of those cases.
　Matilda appeared in front of Stan.
　"Hey, why are you following me around? Do you have a grudge?
　To this Matilda replied, with tears in her eyes, "You killed my brother.
　'You killed my brother.
　Obviously, Stan is upset when he hears these words.

　The men in this story can be roughly divided into two patterns: they are loyal to something or not. They are either loyal to something or they are not. Even Joseph, who is the epitome of that bastard, actually liked, worshipped and revered "Burning spear and Marcus Garvey" to such a degree that it could be called a religion. He was a fan of "Spear and Marcus Garvey", and to a degree it must have been a religion, because he hid dope in its associated items. It was last time I said that this was detected by Brad, but Leon is also loyal to his own work and always oriented towards perfection in his work.
　So what about Stan, it's safe to say that although his methods are messed up, he's actually showing quite a bit of fucking seriousness in his work. He is fighting on the front lines with a gun in his hand, without leaving it to his subordinates and without regard for the danger to himself. They are taking the initiative to go in and get their hands dirty, without regard for the danger they are in. He loves his job, he loves his job...he dares to create that state of mind through drugs, but he has to get the job done, even if he has to go that far.

　However, Matilda destroys the flow of the story.
　She rides into the DEA (Drug Enforcement Administration) saying "You killed my brother" without thinking about it. It seems as if she has come to take her revenge against Stan. That's probably true. There is a desire for sympathy in taking out one's resentment, in other words. He wants Stan to understand his pain and suffering.
　But Stan has no idea.
　I know that, but there are more things he could have done. In fact, Matilda is willing to drop all other means to get in. You will be able to get the most out of it. I've been in a lot of trouble with Leon, and I've been in a lot of trouble with Leon, but the skill and experience are not there. I've got a bunch of guns and bullets, but I don't think I'm going to use them.
　Brad and the others are under the misapprehension that this guy wanted to take over city hall (or maybe not for revenge, but for a takeover), but Brad doesn't understand. But in fact, Brad can't understand it either, because he has been so brilliant at interpreting the drug's location.
　Matilda's hatred for Matilda, to the extent that she wants to use all the bullets in the world to wipe out one person, is incomprehensible to those men who think "You can kill a target with a minimum of bullets".

　However, Matilda's actions have a tremendous impact on Stan. For Stan, who has taken the drug and turned it on, this is a horrific damage and bitterness that comes from a place he never imagined.
　Then Stan asks.
　'Do you want to go to your brother?'
　Matilda shakes her head.
　'You know how precious life is when you're faced with the fear of death. Do you want to live?'
　"Yes.
　Good.
　It's not even funny. Killing someone who doesn't want to live.
　Stan is clearly trying to kill Matilda here.
　However, Stan is trying to change Matilda here from someone who has a grudge against him to someone who has come to kill her but fears for his life, and he had to change it. If he didn't change, Stan couldn't kill Matilda, who was coming in alone because of this resentment against him. Because this creepy guy was creepy, and more importantly, he didn't understand.
　But the "I don't want to die, I want to live" guy was easy for Stan to understand. Because at that point, he would be the target of the "hunt" he had often done.

　Leon says that he doesn't kill women and children, and it seems to me that he had probably already experienced this scene. But unlike Stan, Leon probably could have killed that object. But that was a really unpleasant experience. So much so that he had to make up rules. Stan, unlike this one, didn't seem to be doing anything in particular, at first glance.

　By the way, Leon's house is raided at the end, and this scene is significant. Stan, who loves to lead the charge, doesn't take the lead. On the contrary, he's communicating over the radio from a distance and, moreover, he hasn't even taken any drugs.
　First of all, it's probably important to note that he's not on the scene and not leading the charge. This is very different from the raid on Joseph's house, probably because he knew how skilled the other party (i.e. Leon) was. As long as you send a request to Tony's place, he does a beautiful job. He's too brilliant and crafty. He must have known that. That's probably why when he had to fight that opponent, Stan wanted to take the lead, but he couldn't, in fact, take the lead. He would have been tempted to do so, but his opponent was too formidable to do so. This also means that he was willing to go in at the front of the pack when he could probably kill them unilaterally with almost no resistance, as Joseph's family did. In other words, Stan was a one-sided slaughterer, and he probably enjoyed the "hunt". If you think about it, Leon's house, for example, couldn't do that, and in those cases Stan has avoided it, and in that sense Stan seems to be capable of cowardice, or careful judgment.
　So is this cowardice or prudence, then? Stan yells up at him.
　'EVERYONE! Bring them all in, Stan says, mobilizing them all. He's good enough to call them all in without hesitation when he sees that they're in trouble, but is this really based on prudence? If it was, we wouldn't have sacrificed so many times in the first raid. I thought I could get by with successive feeds, but there was nothing I could do about it, so I called it in a hurry. I think what we have here is more impatience than calm and cautious, and I think it's more of a cowardice that this guy is still pretty tough.
　And that's why he's not taking drugs.
　According to the setting, the drug is called chlordiazepoxide, an anti-anxiety drug (a tranquilizer), but we don't know for sure, so I don't want to be definitive.
　There are two times throughout this story that Stan takes the drug, and there seems to be a pattern to the way he takes the drug.
　(1) He drinks it as if he's trying to get into the spirit of the game in order to get turned on before he goes in.
　(2) Drink when you say "raid" but it looks like you can do a one-sided killing and you can clear up and enjoy it.
　The first time, during the raid on Joseph's house, there was nothing wrong with it.
　But the second time, when he drank it when he was talking directly to Matilda, it was very bad. The drugs should have been working, or rather, they were working so well that with that lucid awareness, I was able to see clearly and well what Matilda was saying in the on-mode, and this caused me to experience a decent amount of intense discomfort.
　Perhaps this is only delusional, but I'm trying to think that it's possible that during the third time of raiding Leon's house, which should have been the third time, I was too damaged last time to take drugs, but I can't be sure of this. So I really wanted to drink, but I must have wanted to drink and feel refreshed and enjoy the pleasure of lashing out at the two of them with the majority, but the truth is that I couldn't do that, and the nature of Stan's annoyance, which is always annoying, is slightly different because this time he was able to take the drugs and I think the reason for this is that there was no such a thing.

　The reason why I think this is because I'm trying to find possibilities in this limited text of Leon, and if you think there are many possibilities, this interpretation itself is unreasonable. However, there are many things that are not explained too well, and I think that Leon and Stan are too much alike to be considered complete strangers. In Leon's case, there's a point of view that allows him to turn his unfulfilled emotions into something manageable, or at least to feel that he can't do it in the first place or that he can't be saved.
　In Stan's case, however, there is no metaphorical perspective.
　On the contrary, Stan has only drugs. Not God, not plants, not the past, but drugs.
　I don't think there's anything to say about this lack of salvation.

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